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I forgot all about making an entry last week. This one will probably be a bit sappy.

I want to move to a place that's clean and no one yells. Where the TV can be turned down low or off and it can just be quiet. Where I can cook food or clean the kitchen without the stench of urine permeating the room. Somewhere I can really feel home.

There was this gay porn fic (Judge me.) of FFXII that had a line like: "Home is a time, not a place, and time past cannot be returned to." I used to really identify with that quote a lot. (I think Fangu is/was friends with the person who wrote this?) I'm starting to not believe it anymore though. I'm starting to think that I can build my own home and move past all of this bullshit.

I just need to keep moving on and striving to better myself. I'm going to go back to college and take a serious, hard look at my education this time. I'm going to learn how to drive, hopefully find work that doesn't completely suck the life out of me, and I'm going to get medicated for my anxiety--I have an appointment with a nurse practitioner next month! (Which reminds me, I have to be sure I talk to my therapist to be sure a nurse practitioner can both evaluate and disperse meds to me...) It's going to be a teleconference here in town, which seems really modern to me and it's interesting. I just hope there's no lag!

That's all there is. I would post fandom updates and stuff, but I'll save that for either later this week or another entry, so I don't dilute the content of this one.


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